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Why do I write sad thoughts?

Happy people are all alike; every unhappy person is unhappy in its own way.

My mood today is neutral. Nothing depresses me, nothing stimulates my brain either. Boredom wouldn't kill me yet. I was busy doing this and that stuff(yeah blogging). Although some dark feeling is starting to grow in me(hormonal probably) but I couldn't think of anything to write today. So, I was reading my record journal of last year and the year before which is handwritten in pen/pencil. I don't have usual access to social network in those years so I usually write them down, sometimes doodles it or sometimes write it in a way like a status post in Facebook. I have this thought-question posted in my journal-diary:
Why do I write sad thoughts?

I just felt like words are overflowing when I am sad, when I am depressed. It amazes me that I also feel like I was a better writer when I am totally down.

When I read the short story The Horla, and followed through narrator recording events in his days, I felt like I was into the mind of the writer. Having little or no background about the author Guy de Maupassant, I thought the writer must have gone through a mental breakdown to have the capacity to write all those psycho moving imagination. I was shocked when at the last paragraph of the short story, the writer indeed went to a mental breakdown. Scary, it was.

There were times in the past when I shared to some friends how down I am. Most of them told me to keep a positive mind and be happy. It was the hardest advice to take.

Philosopher Voltaire's in his story Zadig the Babylonian said "The joy of the happy would be an insult; but two men in distress are like two slender trees, which, mutually supporting each other, fortify themselves against the storm."

And so, at times of distress it is always the best way to write sad thoughts, and it was easier than when happy times.

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